Sunday, October 22, 2006

of movies, videokes, ice cream, mojos, and shawarma....


i figured that i get as much out of the measly break i have this season by watching tv, movies and dvd's (more like turning into a major couch potato). Yesterday was one of the most unproductive days of my life. i woke up around 12 noon ate lunch watched a movie and fell asleep, waking up to ruby's bell around 630 inviting me to watch a movie..
so at 8pm off we went to eastwood with erika. james went ahead with his car, he drives na by the way. i can't believe my eyes when i saw "martin" there sa entrance. it's been like years since we last saw each other but he's still the same old martin, the ma-chika, ever-friendly dude we met at piao's. :-)


what would you do if you found out that today is your last day on earth??


i would probably do everything i've never got round to, like bunjee jump, sky dive and parasail. and when the sun sets i'd spend it with my loved ones just talking saying things i have been afraid to say, saying sorry's and i love you's and just lingering and savoring the moment.. they say that when you near your death you become more brave and courageous. i guess that's just the way life is.

the world trade center movie is just so emotional and so sad, that it just makes you realize a lot of things, like how people just can't live alone, loneliness scares the hell out of them, like how the thought of losing a loved one can make you insane, like how helping people out give you such a high, and realizing how short really life is cos you'd never really know when you will die.




why do people sometimes never know what their real age is?

after eastwood and shakey's we decided to have a road trip, leading to ofcourse a videoke place. since our driver hehehe dont wanna go out of qc, it was pork barrel for us. the crowd in there last night were just going at it. there was a lady who probably is what 50 year old na feeling 20. she was wearing an uber cleavage showing outfit and dancing like crazy.. parang ex-japayuki. haayy but you know whatever rocks their boat is fine with me.. i just hope i dont turn out like that when im 50.



persian food= ultimate comfort food


a trip to timog wouldnt be complete without a stop to behrouz. they renovated it na and it looks much much better already. mas presentable. we had shawarmas and kebabs and hummous. the beef chunks, the tahina sauce and the chappatti was heaven... i swear pag dating ko sa bahrain it would be a shawarma overload.. plus kowloon!! hehehe

nuthin else matters... @ 10:10 PM

Friday, October 20, 2006

you know there was a time in my life that i didn't have to worry about anything, everything was being taken care of, my clothes, food, bills, everything.. those were the times that all i had to do was take all the things that were given to me and fulfill my duties as a student. the joys of being a child.. it is often said that change is the only constant thing in this world. i guess i cant really take control of the changes happening right now. God knows how much i want to stay as a kid, God knows..

now i have to look after everything, all the decisions i make are crucial. all these adult business is scaring the shit out of me. Bank business, property business aaahh. i know i have to face this sooner or later but does it have to be now?? can't i just be that little girl again?? because growing up sucks... i'm always afraid of failing, of making the wrong decisions, (which if you know me, you'd know i make a lot of those) i mean the task of being handed over of taking care of all your family properties and banking obligations plus the business is a big- huge deal. what if i screw it up? haaaay..

it's officially my sembreak now, but i found out kanina that's in not yet pa pala.. oh well ;)

when you are stressed just remember that it is desserts spelled backwards, so it should be just a piece of cake!!!

pps: i soo wana go to the beach as in beach.. the land of sunshine, happy people and pinacolada!! any takers???

nuthin else matters... @ 11:26 PM

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

a lot has happened in the span of 9 months.. experiences that are both significant and not so. as of this moment i have five more papers to write but i have no energy to complete them. lately i have been hooked to so many things, grey's anatomy, the tv, bossa nova, sleeping and turon.. hahaha

as the semester draws to an end, i have regrets of not doing a lot of things.. but that's water under the bridge now. i will just have to await the final verdict. there are lots of emotions raging inside me now, fear, rage, frustration, hopelessness, and shittiness, yes all dark and bad emos. i am once again uncertain of where i am, emotionally that is. lately i just want to stay at home and not speak to anyone, sort of like a mini-hibernation, all i know is that i want to forget all the worries and fear that i have now, and for just a while feel like everything's gonna be alright, i need someone to say that it's gonna be alright, i just want to scream it all out, everything.. but the problem is i dont know what's wrong, or maybe, yes, maybe im just in denial. Denial seems like the easier choice anyway.

Denial = comfort

nuthin else matters... @ 2:15 AM